I went to the gym today for an orientation session. I have never belonged to a gym before, other than the one at my college. I usually work out on my own at home with DVDs or I go for walks. When I went in the for the orientation a woman greeted me kindly. When we sat down to talk, I told her that I wanted to supplement my weight watchers program with some fitness. We sat down and I told her what I eat on an ideal day on weight watchers.
A boiled egg
Some light orange juice
oatmeal, banana, turkey bacon
Some type of meat, vegetables and whole grain of some sort
When I told her this, she looked at me with this look of disdain like “come on, I KNOW you’re not eating like that.” The implication being that I’m chubby so therefore I must be eating crap all the time. I explained to her that I am on weight watchers (lost 7lbs so far) so food is not the problem when I stick to the plan, that is how I eat. When I AM OFF the plan, I will eat junk food, which I admit is a bad habit. I told her I struggled with emotional eating more than anything. It’s not that I don’t know the right foods to eat, it’s that I let my emotions control me and a horrible habit is stress eating about anything that bothers me.
Then, it was time for measurements:
She measured my waist, arms, thighs, butt etc.. Mind you I had on two layers of clothes, sweat pants and some shorts. I had to layer my clothes because my sweatpants had a hole in the butt. Next, she asked me what my weight was, I told her last week, I weighed XXX, I should be in the 120s for my height. So, she had me step up on the scale and said, ” actually you’re XXX.” Meaning, I was heavier than I said, mind you I had on baggy clothes and layers.
So, anyway, I said fine and agreed to come in and workout a few times a week. It was an awkward start, then I went to the fitness class. The next class was some type of power yoga, so I did that. Then I got on the bike for 20 minutes.
I just think that I could get a good workout at home, without having to feel judged and without having to feel like I have to compete with everyone else in the class. I’d rather go at my own pace.
Anyway, I’ll go a few times week and also do my own home workouts, so we’ll see what happens.