Did you know that I am a Christian? I have another blog where I blog about my spiritual, religious life and journey. I want to keep up with it more. If nothing else, I want to learn how to have a fufilling life. I feel like I’ve kinda kept my spiritual life and my sexular, I mean secular life separate. I feel like I’m one person on one blog and another person on this blog. I want to be both those people. I truly don’t feel like you can separate spiritual life from secular life. At one point or another, the other spills into the other one. I think to have a truly fufilling life, you need to learn to live as if the two are intertwined. I need to learn to live that way anyway.
I believe in Jesus as my savior, I truly value his lesson and teachings. I feel like if I applied them more to my everyday life, my life would be more fufilling. I would love to learn how to do that, not in a superficial way, but in a real way.
I also struggle with my sexuality because of this. I am not happy to admit that I have indulged my sexual lusts as of late. I’ve kinda been reading sexual material, looked at just a little porn and I kinday masturbated. I don’t think touching yourself or anything is wrong, but when the lust controls your life or when it changes who you are or makes you feel ashamed then I do feel it’s wrong. I don’t like feeling that way and there’s nothing wrong with having a healthy sexuality, but it’s gotta reflect my spiritual life too.
I wish God could show me three things.
1. How to serve him in truth
2. How to be happy
3. How to have both a health sexual image & honor my temple
4. How to forgive all those who’ve hurt me or hurt others. Including those Black women bashers, those people at my job. I can forgive them, I just want God to show me the fruits of forgiveness and help me to understand how and what forgiveness truly is, not just say “I forgive,” but live it.
But, I do forgive in my heart, strive to move forward.
Until now you have asked nothing in my name. Ask, and you will receive, that your joy may be full.
I want to live a fruitful life. I am praying and asking for God to help me have a fruitful life. Please Lord and Savior Jesus Christ, show me the way, help me to have a fruitful life starting today. Forgive me of my sins Lord and I will and can forgive all those who sinned against me. Show me how to do that Jesus Christ so that I may have a fruitful life.
P.S, it would also be nice if I could find a church or Christian organization or something that is more geared at people my age.
Also, I know not everyone shares same beliefs, but please no disrespectful comments against my beliefs or other people’s beliefs for that matter.