Any way, I’ve been chilling at home this week. I’ve been reviewing my vocabuary words for my grad school entrance exam. I have to actually start doing practice questions soon. I have been reading quite a bit and going for walks. I have decided that I’m going to take a break from work for a while because of the bad experience that I had. I am going to be doing some volunteer work and I’m traveling to South America in November hopefully to do some more volunteer work there. Do you know where I’m going?.. I’ll give you a clue it has a large population of Black people, it’s hot there, they speak a romance language that isn’t Spanish. It has a reputation for having beautiful women. See if you can guess where I am going.
I miss the little bit of money that I got from my job, but I’m managing. I am supposed to be getting one more small check soon. I am waiting for the deposit that I put down on an apartment last year to come back so that I can pay for my trip. I also have been doing some odd jobs around my mother’s house for some extra cash, just like I was back in middle school again. So, I really haven’t been up to much. Once I start applying to grad schools hopefully I’ll get a better job and be able to work part time and study part time.
Thats is pretty much my life right now. I went to gynecolgist and got some birth control. I need some freedom and I am probably going to start having sex soon just because I’m tired of waiting. Even if I don’t go all the way , I just want to do something. I feel like I’m so immature for my age, I need to start acting like a woman and embracing my sexuality.
I have been gardening, I picked some tomatoes yesterday and made a BLT (with turkey bacon). I will be planting some shrubs this week after I go buy them.
That’s what I’ve been up to since I quit work, nothing special. I have to get out of my mother’s house though, I just don’t like not having my own private space. *sighs* My friend moved into an apartment with her boyfriend, but I don’t have a boyfriend and honestly I wouldn’t want to move in with a guy who I could end up breaking up with. Then, I’d end up back home right where I started. I want a good job and to go to grad school, my own apartment and then I want to get married, have a baby and build a life. I want all this to happen within the next three years.
Anyway, who thinks I should start having sex soon? I really want to, but I’m scared at the same time because I always thought I’d wait until marriage…what do you guys think?