I started working a few weeks ago. I had been an intern on the job, but they emailed me and ask me to be an employee for the summer season, which is their busiest season. I’m so unbelievable sick of it already. I know people are going to say, with the economy in this state, I should feel blessed to have any job and that’s true…I am very blessed…but the amount of abuse that I am getting on this job is ridiculous. I am treated like infantile fool, given contradictory information and blamed for almost everything. It’s really starting to bother me, I’m grateful for the money, but let’s just say I couldn’t make this a profession…not at all.
Last week I was so upset from being castigated for every little thing that I went and scrubbed the whole bathroom. I was in an angry fury and used the hard scrubbing to get my frustration out. It helped. I did release some tension and after venting to my mother, I felt better. Speaking of hard scrubbing , I wish I had someone to come home to who could f*ck me hard and make the tension go away. I’ve been getting in touch with my sexual side sorta…I think I’m almost ready to go all the way, of course it could just be me talking again.
I don’t know, I get tired of doing the same thing every Friday night. I’m ready for a real romance
Any way, after a hard week…I went out and bought a bottle of wine and I didn’t get carded…could it be that working a 9-5 is ALREADY draining the youth out of me…people usually think I’m a good 6-7 years younger than I am, I’m only 23, I’ve had men tell me I look 12! I don’t get offended, I’m actually flattered, if this keeps up in my forties, I’ll look like I’m in my early thirties!! WOOT! But if this job stuff keeps up…I don’t know! It’s turning me into a bit of a dull, grown-up. I have to drive to work everyday and I’m not that experienced of a driver, it’s stressful with the rush hour traffic and stuff. Now, I’m drinking coffee to wake up in the morning, I NEVER drank coffee before and I am drinking wine to unwind on weekends…so not me!